Ugly, unwanted, and intrusive...
Why do I torture myself with such thinking?
Better yet -- why does my mind torture me?
Irrational and illogical
Images like movie trailers flash through my mind
Vivid and real
I don’t want to look but I can help but see
Even and especially
In the dark with my eyes closed
My heart pounds while emotions knot
And sit in the bottom of my stomach
I dread this feeling when it comes on
It’s tiring, terrifying, and destructive
I wish it all
To be gone