I want to cry but tears won’t come
Saturday, April 14, 2012
I want to cry but tears won’t come
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
and bone-chilling winds sting my face
The wind is so bitter that my eyes water, my nose runs,
and my breath is stolen from my lungs
The bottom of my dress pants are soaked
And they rub against my ankles, causing my joints to ache...
I know it's going to be a long day
I'm late for work
I've forgotten something important
My computer crashes
My cell phone dies
And all the while...
I cant help but listen to an extra bitter co-worker complaining about something
And always taking it out on me...ugh!
Between rage and awe
I can't help but chuckle
...under my breath
It is going to be a long day!
I've forgotten my lunch (but remember i gave my last $20 to my dear ol' son this morning)
So I chain smoke in attempt to numb my hunger
I drink lots of water in attempt to drown my smoke breath
Only to listen to the bitter co-worker now bitch about how the office smells like a cigarette!
It has now become a rotten day
The trials of the day start coming to an end
Finally down to the last inevitable catastrophe...
A flat tire, keys locked in the car, abandoned by a ride, or bus pass lost.....you fill in the blanks.
Exhausted and hungry
Cold and angry
Clinging to warm hopes that the best is yet to come...
When home I finally arrive....
A transformation begins
My spirit casts off old garments
And traditional rituals of my favorite moments in my time and space
Bags of books, computers,and cell phones
fall to the ground
(along with deadlines, due dates, meetings and expectations)
there's a "thump" on the ground...
a glorious release...
I love and look forward to this moment every day.
Like a 'WARRIORESS' shedding to the ground
Her armor and weapons from battle
So too to the ground falls my mental and emotional 'luggage' and armor
...but only after and if I let it all go.
the most gratifying of all moments...
the best part of a most rotten day...
the ritual begins...
hot steaming bath...
a warm enveloping of satin waters
as I'm immersed...
eyes closed to the world
inhaling sweet smells of home and luxury
I dive into my soft warm bed
lavender and vanilla fabric scents
the feeling of my favorite sheets on my smooth legs
the smell of my freshly washed pj’s
my kitten snuggling
purring and petting beside me
make-up free face
the daily 'good-night' phone call to my best friend
A good night kiss from my son...
I sink into my pillow and sigh...
And say 'thank you'
For my own little piece of heaven
Rotten days are worth it
because I'm reminded of how glorious the good things in my life really are!
A rotten day makes the things I protect,
practice, love, and treasure...
A rotten day makes those special moments EUPHORIC...
And therefore, rotten days are WONDERFUL!
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
Monday, September 26, 2011
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
Failures, therefore, dependent upon the amount of non-attempts
Which are nil to none and therefore a success!
And personal strength
For that, I thank you.
Thursday, July 28, 2011
Sunday, July 3, 2011
Life is not a counseling session, be cautious what you say.
Be careful to whom you expose yourself.
You are just as capable as anyone else.
Don’t let other’s fool you… no one has it all together.
Walk tall but remember that you don’t know it all.
Don’t be too proud to accept criticism.
Don’t let pride keep you from humbling yourself when need be.
Allow yourself to make mistakes.
Allow yourself to pull the blankets over your head, but always get up the next morning.
Don’t gossip or participate in gossip, the confidence of that silence will get you further.
Today is not yesterday but it is your tomorrow.
Find balance, know when to say no, and don’t be afraid to let something go.
Be excited for uncertainty, walk through open doors, embrace the unknown with anticipation…its quite exhilarating!
Speak your mind and know when to be quiet.
No one is better than you.
Act professional but do not forget where you came from.
Say “thank you”, be grateful, and more does come.
Always trust your gut.
Learn as much as you can about everything.
Ask a lot of questions.
Make a lot of mistakes.
Be true to yourself.
Smile and love life, especially when it’s raining.