Sometimes I hate that ‘thing’ called love
It fucking sucks!
Someone said, “It is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all” ~WHY?!
Why the fuck is it better to love and lose?
I prefer to love and gain: trust, respect, union, comfort, partnership, loyalty and more LOVE!
What do I lose when I lose love? A part of myself, my heart, my trust in mankind!
I lose time and energy, sanity and faith
When I lose love what do I gain? I gain sick days, and stress, and mistrust and more defense mechanisms.
The only one of those I appreciate is more defense mechanisms- but why must I need them to protect me from love?
What a fucked up desired contradiction!!!